I get a new life, a new light in Badrinath-II

October 30, 2012

Jasmine, lavender, rose, lily, sweet pea, saffron and poppy flowers are blooming in a valley. They are blooming in my valley of flowers. The valley stands majestically between two large mountains and is sprawling below the bright, blue sky. As I stand on a big boulder to see this valley, I see flower beds as far as my eyes can see. The flowers are gently swaying with the breeze wherever it is drifting. I stretch out my arms along with my imagination far and wide and inhale the mystifying air as long as I can. I stretch on the tips of my toes and inflate myself as much as I possibly can.  I can distinctly smell the atmosphere laden with divine perfumes. And never before were the astral smells as distinct and vivid as of now.  It has the mild fragrance of sweet peas. I can smell it again. The sweet fragrance of magical jasmine has aroused my subtle sensibilities. And the waft of jasmine has filled my olfactory senses with intoxicating spell of mild hypnosis. The eyelids are becoming heavier with the balm of this kind of mind hypnosis. Relaxation and more relaxation is overpowering by now and the subtle dose of mild intoxication is comforting every pore . Overriding all this is a complete balancing of all the three entities – body, mind and even the soul. They all have become one.

Rapidly this calming effect is lifting my soul and mind to another world where perhaps only the angels or saints live. The world that I have just stepped in is the world of highest subtlest stellar sensibilities. I have become as light as an angel sashaying on white fleecy clouds with joy and glee. The ultra-soothing scent of my valley of flowers takes me to the last step of the door to the higher levels of the astral seventh skies. I visualize that my inner core is vacant and this prevailing abstract, deep tranquillity fills it up extravagantly. The atmosphere here smells heavenly as plentiful light, nimble poppies which are bursting open are hypnotizing and transporting me to transcending infinity.  I am visiting the calmest regions of that advanced cloud of serenity. I am in the astral skies of the heaven, which is called Ramnik Udyan by the semi gods in the celestial skies – a garden that is not only mystifying but even has the power to soothe my every cell in the agile brain which is now sparkling with abundant energy. I am in euphoria and again and again long to be….Morning meditation 27.10.12

I bought jasmine flowers on the previous day and presented them with love to my deities. The house was filled with the divine smell throughout night as well in the day that followed. The mystic spell of the grace of my Guru Param Pujya, the holiest Shri Mahavatar Babaji began to dispense on me silently. The description given here of what I began to experience on that morning is just a mere glimpse of the novel experience that I stumbled upon surprisingly. After the unprecedented tranquillity that I underwent in my very quiet heart, I had thanked him and prayed with love to initiate me to start the next post according to his penchant and judgement.

I also invoked Divine Mother of Pondicherry for the fact that it was first of all her from whom I learnt that the flowers have a Spirit and she could communicate with them because of the Occult powers that she had possessed. All flowers have their own wavelength and if we communicate with them mentally, they can heal us wherever we are provided we have removed all the impurities of our hearts. Some flowers have the ability of channelling our current consciousness to the seventh skies if we are ready to reach up to that state, Jasmine being on the top of the list. The Mother was very fond of flowers for several reasons and could talk to them based on her deep knowledge of Occult and flower power science. She created the most amazing incense sticks out of them and taught a few the art of this science when she was alive.  The samadhi of Ma in Pondicherry is although very basic and humble, nonetheless it is decorated every day in the wee hours by sophisticated rangoli, the geometrical designs by just flowers by her devotees even today! What can be a finer way of displaying one’s love and devotion to such a pre-eminent and exalted soul?

Here I would like to insert an interesting anecdote of my own spiritual life to add to the loveliness of this new experience. A few years ago, before I knew fully well who exactly was Babaji, without my knowing he had embedded himself in my life with a tint of mystery and a sense of enigma to lure me! My house would start smelling of rose essence or perfume suddenly out of nowhere. It would also bring about a sense of restfulness and tranquillity to us. I would find it enigmatic because there would be nobody in the house but for me. When other family member came to know of it and he too experienced it, I started believing that there was something more to what my eyes or nose could sense.  This happened many times and I soon got to know from somewhere that it was a good omen in my life. Later on, Shri Babaji told me for I loved flowers a lot he decided to attract my attention in this appealing, unusual and quaint manner. It was also an indication that he would give me some knowledge of occultism in future. The world that we live in should not be the limits of my spiritual education and knowledge, he believed.

He further said that the above cited narrative and extra sensory perception of the astral valley of flowers is a native of one of the upmost levels of the seventh skies, or the seventh stage of Consciousness. He asked me to cite this narrative as there is a definite purpose behind it. He wishes to illumine the people and impart them the following spiritual knowledge and wisdom- In his own words,

  • “All the people are after some kind of happiness and that happiness is of the ephemeral, transitory and perishable world. The happiness that they are pursuing will never be found outside; it is to be found inside within oneself with meditation. One is perishable, impermanent worldly happiness of lower order attained by the derivation of the senses and this pursuance culminates in a glut and over supply of sorrow, misery and painful consequences. The humans can even fall in hell because of their compelling bad habits because they become a slave of their senses and finally the senses begin to rule their mind and body.
  • Next are the people who wish to fulfil their yearnings of attaining money, power, status and some who live to bloat in their egos. Such people are bound to be suffering from depression, diseases and discontentment in future. There is no end and limit to find happiness outside; we will be squandering many human lives like this to no avail.
  • Then a few come in this world and uncover everything, and out of them choose what is sacred, pure and revered. They lead a gentle, pious and restrained life.

Those persons, who with their firm, unyielding stiff efforts, try hard in each life, as a final point find long-lasting happiness and God’s bliss one day. This type of long-lasting and stable happiness, ever increasing, and ever widening happiness is beyond the senses. It is defined and termed as ‘ati indriya ananda’ –that which is beyond the senses. Such splendid happiness is experienced by the mind or manas. When the mind approaches God and is very near to it, then such an exotic state is derived by the seeker by the blessing of God and Guru both. Ati Indriya Ananda is achieved with Guru Kripa, Ishwara Kripa.

Everyday remove all your impurities, keep your mind away from contaminations. Concentrate your mind at one point, make it stable. Learn meditation and make your senses, mind and body stable and you will find success in your efforts with the grace of your Guru.

Atma’s nature is Satchitananda.  When your chitt, inner core will become stable in the Light of the Truth  Satyaprakash, you will attain ananda, enraptured bliss. Keep your mind calm, keep it pure; have patience. One day you will also experience the power of God.

Those persons attain Prabhutva Gyan or blazing knowledge who never permit any negative thoughts to breed inside. No matter what happens, they never lose confidence in themselves. The path of God is a very long route; there will be many ups and downs. Like a brave soldier, obey the commands of your Guru, and become fearless and march ahead, you will one day reach your journey’s end.

To achieve blazing knowledge, keep your mind stable uninterruptedly. Be alert, the mind should not be unsteady and unbalanced. The storms blowing outside should not enter inside you.  To achieve this, you will require tremendous mental energies. To generate abundant mental energies keep your body healthy, pure, disease free and synchronized with your mind. The heart and the brain are the two most important organs of the human body. Keep the heartbeat rate steady and stable by regular meditations and physical exercises. Take enough sleep and eat saatvik or pure foods. Lead a life of being morally upright, unblemished and courageous.”

Twilight meditation on same day

My silent conversation with Shri Mahavatar Babaji during meditation-

Shree Babaji-“Regarding the depth and duration of your meditation, the duration has increased but further depth needs to be acquired, go further inside.”

Me- “How?”

Shri Babaji­-“By relenting  the thoughts that inhabit your persona or aura. Become aware of them. You are very serious inside but cheerful from outside. Your sensitive heart should not be allowed to harbour or cling to the anxieties or concerns of other people’s wrongful living. You should not feel sorry for them because they are misled by their own shortcomings. Clear this now in meditation and in future do not hold on to these wavelengths. Just do the right actions towards them all, do good to all and once the good acts are done, do not contemplate or brood over it. Do not think of them at all. Free yourself of those thoughts because they are from lower consciousness and your saatvik energies will drop. The removal of such thoughts will create some empty mental space. Fill that space with Brahma”

At this point of time, I saw the diagram of a human body with the spinal cord and the seven chakras, the seven energy centres placed on it. In a flash of a moment, I recollected that the higher one goes up on the chakras, the higher the consciousness of the human being. I could then see those prohibited thoughts approaching me as a dark wave once again and my energies began to sink and I started to feel down and sluggish again. I caught it right there and then and decided that I will consciously eradicate thoughts which are coming from people around me who are being misled by their own doings. I should absolve myself because I cannot teach them virtuous things. They will have to do it on their own now. My constant suggestions and help have had no heed.

I again became very calm and restful in mind once I became lighter with the removal of the arrived uninvited thoughts. I was absolutely composed and experienced some moments of complete silence within.  There were no mental movements, no images, no sounds and no activity. I realized that I had just touched the “Nishabdi Brahma” state, a state of just being.

For the first time I understood and captured some moments where we become wordless, soundless and devoid of any internal as well as external activities in the human mind. It occurred to me what I had asked some wise people in the past what “Anahat” was. I was familiar with these words because they had too often come in the couplets of Sant Kabir. Many times, I had tried to peep into and go behind these words about fifteen to twenty  years ago when I was establishing myself as a serious seeker; I could hardly scratch the surface then ! However, I wanted a gigantic figure and someone reliable to explain me all this with authority  because the dohas or couplets of Kabir which are most  beautifully sung by Kumar Gandharva and  learnt by heart by me were still not experienced or understood with depth at that time. You shall find these terms explained here by our kindest, revered Babaji in a very simple and easy manner for all of us to appreciate and cherish in a short while…..

I must have sat in that state for what seemed to be a long span of time and then Babaji proclaimed what I have been craving and yearning for ever since I have found him. Since the time he has come in my life, it has been my wholehearted and unswerving desire to be initiated by Shri Mahavatar Babji and receive the knowledge of the ultimate Truth-the knowledge of Self or Brahma. Who could have been a better personage than him to be initiating me in this most pious and highest human act?

Dear readers, please let me tell you that when Shri Babaji speaks to me, his favourite language is Hindi and he prefers that to others. And I am still savouring all those enchanting, sweet nectar words that he has spoken to me during twilight meditation. Twilight time is the time for the lavender sky and the lavender colour is most soothing equally for the mind and body. Like soft lavender colour, soothing words arrived unexpectedly towards me touching my Soul at that glorious hour. Shri Babaji chose the most appropriate time for such an important event-tranquil time of the day and a very tranquil state of my mind….

I am repeating those lines in Hindi to give the real message because there is sometimes a difficulty faced in finding the exact and equivalent words that are originally written in the Upanishads and Bhagwad Geeta. Sometimes, the flavour  and essence of the Sanskrit word is lost in its  translation to English because it does not have equivalent words in its dictionary. Therefore, in trying to retain the fragrance of those most enlightening words, for the first time I am quoting his words in the most word-perfect manner as I am capable to do.

The translation of the same will follow in English after the Hindi version for the convenience of those who are unable to decipher it.

He initiated me by pronouncing, “Anahat tak jana hai jo shunya ke baad aata hai. Shunya ke bad naadghosh hota hai jahan par yogi  ke mana mei  akasmaat Om sunaee deta hai ya phir sundar ghantiyon ya ghanti ki awaaz. Shunya se pahele shanti aur ananda aata hai.

Mana jab shunya mei hota hai tab shabdaheen, vicharheen hota hai. Yah mana ki gaharaee se hota hai isliye kaha jata hai mana ko aur gahara le jao. Is awastha mei jitni der raha paogee, utna eeshwariya sukh milega. Yah guru kripa se milta hai. Jisko sansari aadmi kalpana yogya bhi nahin hai, yeh woh sukh hai. Isliye dhyan mei baithne ke liye merudand ko aur majboot banao jisse tum aur der tak sukhasana mei baith pao.

Aise samay mei apni aakhon mei dekho, tumhe prakash aata dikhaee dega. Woh mere mei se aa raha hai. Tumhara mana har tarah se  mujh mei doob chukka hai aur jab- jab tum mera smaran karogi, tumhe prakash dikhayee dega. Vah jyoti tumhe Brahma ka gyan degi jo ati durlabh hai. Vah anek janmo mei ekatrit punya uday hone par prapt hota hai.

Brahma prakash hai, Brahma gyan hai, Brahma chetna hai. Is chetna ko apne andar sada  jagay rakho. Brahma prakash punj hai, apne andar usey sada prajvalit rakho. Brahma sada tumhari raksha karta rahega. Brahma tumhari chetna ko prajvalit  karta rahe  is sandhya aisi manokamna karo….”

English translation.

“Go upto   Anahat  which comes after shunya. After shunya comes naadghosh , a state where the yogi suddenly hears the sounds of Om or of melodious bells or a bell. Before shunya comes peace shanti and bliss ananda .

When the mind is in void or shunya, it becomes speechless and thoughtless. This state comes with the depth of the meditative mind therefore it is advised that you take your mind further deep. The longer you prolong your stay in the deeper levels of your mind, the more you shall attain happiness originating from God. Such a state of mind is achieved with the blessing of Guru. That which is incomprehensible to the worldly man, it is that very  joy and bliss. Therefore make your spinal cord stronger to enable you to sit for longer hours in meditation in sukhasana, a comfortable yogic pose.

During such times, look inside your eyes, you will see light. That light will come from me. Your mind is completely immersed in me in every sense and whenever you will remember me, you will see light. That light will give you the knowledge of Brahma which is very hard to achieve. The knowledge of Brahma is attained with the releasing of uncountable pious actions accumulated over many lives lived before this birth.

 Brahma is Light. Brahma is spiritual wisdom. Brahma is Consciousness. Always keep the flame of that consciousness kindled in you. Brahma is a cluster of Light, Prakash Punj. Brahma will always protect you. May that Brahma always keep your consciousness ablaze, have such a yearning this evening….”

After my meditation got over, I went to the altar and lit a small candle in the dispenser as a mark of reverence to worship Shri Mahavatar Babaji who commenced a day of new Light in my life. On the top of the dispenser I released a few drops of flower essence. Before long, the room smelt delightful and very pleasing. The fragrance was of none other than that of delightful Jasmine.

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I get a new life, a new Light in Badrinath-I

October 20, 2012

Dear readers, before you proceed to read this new post, I hope you must have read the previous two –New Life, New Light and Expand your Consciousness-II. As the later is lengthy and to recapitulate the important portion from it, let me please highlight and quote a few lines after which the flow of the post will begin.

“Once the Spirit unfolds in us and you know Atma, there are three levels of aspiration and heights to accomplish after that. In accordance, there are three types of gyan or wisdom – Teevra gyan, Prachand gyan and Prabhutva gyan – intense, very intense and blazing wisdom respectively. In between these three stages there are other sub -stages of spiritual and God’s wisdom.”

This new post which has a titleI got a new life, a new Light in Badrinath,’ will have three parts- I, II and III. Part I will narrate about my new life and part II & III will deal with how I got new Light after Mahavatar Babaji revealed some exceptional Oriental antique knowledge as supreme Grace to me after I could not meet him in Badrinath in Sept’12. A deep sense of gratitude wells up all the time in silent moments these days for Him even though outwardly I have been thoroughly engaged in formatting and composing this exceptional post since then. This is surely one of those articles which can never fade or become dull in my memory and will always be most treasured for so many reasons known only to me. My recent voluminous experiences prior to this post and also just before the post took a definite shape today are some of the most wonderful, extra ordinary and memorable experiences I have ever had –earthly as well as spiritual. They have in fact been life-altering experiences. I am now a very changed person- much, much calmer and quieter inside outside. The deep sense of oneness with my Supreme Self and the unbroken connection between we two makes it so. The exclusive experiences have today made me understand what is Moksha or liberation, the complete science behind it and also what happens on this path even after this particular eminent high state of human Spiritual Consciousness is attained.

The theory of karma and karmafal or action and reaction is densely connected with the kind and level of illumination or Moksha a soul finally gets; they are very intricately interconnected in this matter. I have learnt that the highest spiritual wisdom comes to only those who are pure, pious and kind-hearted in every life and not just selected few out of the uncountable. It is a chain or series of many, many virtuous births and pious lives that are responsible for accumulation of highest spiritual wisdom-the stage of Prabhutva Gyan or blazing knowledge and wisdom. It comes after one attains Moksha. It is a long procedure where our every good act, whether visible or invisible to others accumulate over a very long period of time and those very actions act as a highly positive force in some future specific life to give us the incredible powerful push that we would require to break free from the bondage of lives which were our very first ones on this Earth as humans!!! Imagine going that very far in time and space in mind or manas with your kindest Guru! This is real and is possible if you desire it very strongly and fall in the category of intense and fiery determined seekers and meet the pre-qualifications to achieve it which are pre-set by the Supreme Force.

I have been very fortunate to be able to reach up to the first ever human birth that I took and recently the last thin string that was tying me as a compulsion was broken and I became free of any chain.

This blog post is for one and all. It is for those readers who have been consistent in keeping in touch with the regular postings on the blog since its inception or who have arrived lately and are taking their first steps. It is also for those people who are yet to come from all over the world. This article is going to be useful for the people of future as this post also touches upon concerns and issues of our present overall lives and even the lives of our generations still to come. All the posts which are regularly posted here are for all types of seekers, the casual one, the serious one and lastly the very serious ones. It depends on each one’s desire how far one wants to go or how much does each seeker wishes to experience one’s Divine Self vis- a -vis in this very life.

To procure the highest order of spiritual knowledge called Prabhutva Gyan, or blazing knowledge, the guru makes the disciple undergo intensive spiritual work and toil so that the very transparent invisible loam or dirt of delusion does not exist anywhere; it vanishes completely. The more we lose the grip of that ignorance or Maya, the more wisdom we get. Meditation erases slowly the memory of our contact and contamination with Maya over lives. Meditation calms the mind, cleans it of prevailing Maya, subdues and quietens it. And the rays of God’s Light in intense moments of high meditative stage, penetrate our cerebrum and in doing so they give us solutions and answers to our protracted and bewildering problems which are manifestations of our difficult karmas or actions performed sometime in the past. When the last strings or threads of karmic bondage with the very first lives are also shattered by the blazing knowledge very gently and you are set free, the soul is ready for the third and final stage of illumination- Prabhutva Gyan. The bondages are hidden in the subtle body and cannot be seen by anyone except the Guru. The corresponding alterations and markings of these karmic slavery are etched inside the brain. During meditation, with the grace of God and the Divine Master, the shreds called the loam of ignorance or avidya present in the brain are wiped off by the illuminating rays of Light and there are no dust particles in our spine and nervous system. In future times, as there are no particles of ignorance in our nervous system, the rays of the blazing wisdom enter freely in our nervous cells. Such a phenomenon is for the handful as the criteria for passing this is hard to meet.

  • There are three things that the seeker must have never done in any one of his incarnations and based on those criteria, he/she becomes qualified to even dream of procuring such blazing illumination called as Prabhutva Gyan. The highest level of wisdom and spiritual knowledge is attained after one attains Moksha and are next levels after this stage. Such a soul should never have committed suicide even if there were insurmountable difficulties or pain in any life.
  • Should never have killed or murdered any one and
  • Should not have grabbed someone’s land unlawfully with force or coercion.

If any soul has ever committed either one or more than one of these sins in any life, then by the order and command of God, he/she is debarred from attaining the highest stage of Samadhi- Brahma Samadhi. It is achieved only after attaining Prabhutva Gyan, the most blazing knowledge and wisdom of God and its workings.

God has a record of all our past actions in all our lives or incarnations and the perfect Guru can peep into all your lives easily. Having said that, if the seeker is very determined not to mind the fury of so many lives’ force of karmas unfolding in some queer or hard ways, and wishes to still rise up and bask in the glory and shine of one’s Cosmic Spirit, then the perfect Guru will give some of his own force and will power to substantiate the will power and desire of his disciple, irrespective of any gender provided she or he is willing to take on anything, any circumstance that is sent by the will of God at that juncture. The perfect Guru will then start his mastery of skilled acts by guiding the disciple in the most mysterious fashion to accomplish this far-fetched and inconceivable goal.

In the mid of October 2011, one afternoon while I was sitting relaxed and thinking of my spiritual life journey, suddenly I heard Babaji saying that he would like me to travel to many places in a serial to India’s heritage sites.

I had many times wished to go to Khajuraho and Ajanta Ellora since a long time but never went there. And as the itinerary got finalized, I was thrilled and at that time I was not in a position to perceive the connotation of the whole episode and drama. The real meaning of intensive travelling was minimal and superficial. The unabridged purpose of visiting the various sites has just been understood and seeped in. In Nov’11, I began touring with the first trip to Kanhangad, Kerala to the caves of Swami Shri Nityananda where he did penance for many years. I received a lot of strength and understanding of his personal spiritual journey and my future spiritual journey alongside with that. He blessed me so that I could pursue my future journey smoothly and without breaks and hurdles.

A short visit to Karla caves near Mumbai and Igatpuri to trek to Kalsubai moutain in December and to Ajanta Ellora in January was made. Soon after this, we went to Mallikarjun at Sri Sailam in the month of February after which I toured Puri, Konark Dhauligiri Bhubaneshwar and concluded the round with Khajuraho in the month of March. I assumed that the travelling would end here. But the whole touring came to an end finally only last month when I again went to Shri Badrinath in September.  I went to Badrinath in August also but returned from Rishikesh because of floods and landslides  . Why were these many trips made apart from seeing the heritage sites was hidden in mystery until a few days back when I found out slowly. I had mentioned in those posts that I had visited my past lives when I was in Puri or Khajuraho and I have also constructed temples in a few important sites there. I was made to visit these places because they are a landmark in my spiritual journey and those lives standout from others. The unburnt seeds of unripe karmas were cauterized by reliving those lives momentarily. Then again, what was the need to know all this was kept hidden away from me until the whole truth was out after I made a third unsuccessful attempt to meet Shri Mahavatar Babaji in the middle of September’12.

In the last few months I wanted three things from Shri Mahavatar Babaji

  • More Divine knowledge
  • Inspiration to touch new unparalleled heights in Spirit
  • Shakti or power to increase the depth and duration of my daily meditations

Although I did not come to know when God heard my petition, but the recent hardships, turmoil, agitation and arduous events at home and in the trip to the Himalaya’s Badrinath temple area, granted me to a great extent my above desired plea. However, there were no prior indications or intimations from any where as to what was to happen and what would finally emerge from it all. Whatever few instructions that were articulated by Shri Mahavatar Babaji sometime during the day or sometime during calm moments of night to me were obeyed and followed with complete reliance and executed with confidence. This went on for more than a month and a half.

As each day arrived one by one, beginning from 22nd August onwards they became harder and harder to take till the end of September. I was still absolutely clueless about what was happening and also what my predefined and pre- casted fate was and the final outcome of all that was on-going. Yet I believed in Babaji’s godlike words and pursued till the end; my utter blind faith in Mahavatarji led me to do so and I was tenacious and indefatigable. So much so, that when my mother underwent a long stay in the hospital in the last week of August in Sharjah,  I was told by my relatives at one stage that she was recovering and would return home in two days. So I left for Delhi on 13th Sept and proceeded towards Badrinath area. I reached on 16th evening and the same evening my mother passed away and we were miles and miles away from each other. This was devastating. I was a helpless onlooker and was wondering what could be the reason of Babaji’s queer behaviour.

I later realized that because of lack of purity and divinity prevailing in the people around me, Babaji thought it wise to instead pursue the pre-decided plans of clearing the load of dense karmas of me and my daughter. And therefore I found myself in the chilly weather of the Himalayas instead of being with all the relatives who soon dived cheaply after the bad news came to take charge of performing mundane, inane acts and rites and thus glorifying themselves rather than the departed soul! Though I was gloomy and felt out of place, I decided to still pursue my goal to reach the caves of Shri Mahavatar Babaji twenty five kilometres away from Badrinath temple.

This time again the guide conned us and much against my intuition and wish, started the trek on a wrong day. There were wet clouds and the sun did not seem to be kind to us that day. We still began our trek although late on 18th September. The weather became very adverse after two o’clock and we were not taken care at all by any one. The consequences were that I became critically ill on 12,000 feet above sea level by four o’clock and had to be rescued literally. We were very lucky to meet by chance a group of five curious paramilitary trainees and a trainer respectively near our tent. I told them that there was an emergency and I wished to cut short my trek because of bad treatment and lack of amenities given by the organizer. They agreed and we trekked back in a drizzly dark night thus saving each other’s lives. The path was very dangerous and slippery. We faced death every moment and were many times hanging by just a fine thread of life over wet rocks, slippery muddy path and cold weather! One wrong step and we would have fallen in cold Alaknanda river from a huge height. The army men also did not know the route back so we became a whole rescue team. My daughter was alright and looked after me all the way and saw to it that I would not slide back. I had caught a chill because of wet shoes and the body was not getting warm and I was about to become unconscious at some moments. She had never seen me fall to such a poor health condition before and salvaged me by being brave on that scary night and by looking after me all the way down.

In the meadow where we had camped before our retreat, I had lost all hopes of reaching the higher altitudes where Babaji usually stays and thus to meet him personally even this time; realizing this I was totally thunderstruck. It was the most disappointing moment of my life. I was dead tired, disappointed and flabbergasted and somehow reached my hotel at nine o’clock. There everyone was very helpful and caring. They made sure that we immediately got something to eat to make us warm, brought us the useful items from the shop at night and recommended and gave us good food to get good sleep and rest. A sense of belonging and security returned and I became better by recovering very fast.

On the other hand when I woke up in the morning of 19th Sept, magically there was no exhaustion or pain in the body as if I had not trekked those rough and deadly eight something kilometres at all. And the sun came out smiling at us as if to say that it was in collusion in the near fatal conspiracy against us by both -the Almighty and Shri Mahavatar Babaji!! After that everything became very smooth and easy as if only until this part God had decided to punish us in some bizarre ways. As I was too naïve to understand what was happening and what the exact plan of my Guru was, I complied with reverence and reliance. We had to still spend two days in Badrinath for the taxi to come and take us back to Rishikesh. Most interestingly, I could meditate exceptionally well on those days. I have no words to explain to you how blessed I felt when I was all the time talking to Babaji literally during my meditations in the hotel! Day and night I was in direct communion with Him as he unfolded many mind boggling mysteries of the imperceptible world of dead, of our Earth and also guided the passage of my mother safely to the next world. She had died with a lot of suffering and remorse and had asked Babaji for help to move on with ease. It was granted.

I realized that my meditations were unusually exceptional for the reason that Babaji had descended from Satopanth lake on 19th Sept morning because of onset of winter and mild snowfall . He was staying in Badrinath  just a few yards away from me hidingly!! He was living in an ashram with other twelve disciples quietly. He explained what his day is like and adviced me to be one with him to accomplish the most through my meditations because of his presence. He complained mildly that there is more noise than before in Badrinath and he wishes to live secretly so that outside irritants do not jeopardize his unity with God. Silence is required for him to work mentally to send out healing and spiritual vibrations and thoughts the world over.

He was on his way to lower altitude to spend the peak winter. Incidently, we descended on the same date as they. It was 22nd Sept, 2012 morning.  Three devotees joined them in the ashram and they had come to Badrinath to take Shri Babaji and the rest of the troupe with them comfortably. Arrangements were made by these three devotess to take Shri Babaji to warmer altitudes in Himalayas. I and Babaji  although left Badrinath on the same date, did not see each other in physical form. He spoke to me very gently telepathically and also assured me that he would compensate all the bad times I had undergone with very rewarding times by calling me some other time. And as he knew I could not tolerate such high altitudes, so he would call me to the lower heights and would also fulfil all my desires. The most vital of all of them was of being in his holy company.

And even before I met him personally in future, he would give me the highest wisdom now because I had earned it. He assured me that in the upcoming posts sixteen to thirty two posts would be of the highest order. He will soon make me write about special things on the blog which have been written never before! They would be pertaining to Brahma, the highest Universal Self.

He also pointed out to me-“Like you did not circumvent or get marred by the nasty experiences in Badrinath and you were stable and patient, in the same way the state of blazing knowledge called Prabhutva gyan is earned and achieved when we encounter everything peacefully and patiently and never break when God gives us all sorts of difficulties. The Guru will deliberately give the most trying times to the disciple or shishya to make him/her strong to attain the highest knowledge. However, later he will give extreme comfort and relief.”

Dear friends, I cannot ignore something here . I must tell you something fascinating although the post is becoming extremely lengthy this time. When I was trekking up on the steep mountain to reach Vyasa Gufa in 2005 in Badrinath, Mahavatar Babaji reminded me about his forecast- that I will write and publish a book in future. Obviously, it sounded like an unbelievable joke at that time because I thought only saints and yogis could write a book on Vedantic knowledge. He informed and asked me that he is capable of making me write a grand book soon by which I shall become famous but I would myself not understand what I had written like so many people do. In comparison, the other option was that if I waited patiently, he would make me write and publish a book in some years and I would understand everything that I would write, rather than only explain well to others but have a poor understanding of Brahma. I immediately told Babaji that whatever he made me write in future, I should first understand and experience it and later describe and write in a book with crystal clear understanding. He granted my wish!

He explained to me further that he had to cut short my visit to Satopanth this time because of some old debt of my daughter towards her mother in a very distant life had to be cleared and I had to give her an opportunity to save me! She was estranged with her mother in that particular life and the relations had to be reformed and corrected and the whole drama of life and death was re-enacted. As for me, he took one last test to check if He put me in the most annoying, life threatening and the most arduous situation, will I lose my trust and confidence in Him or not.

Well, honestly not once did I think that Babaji was doing anything unreasonable with me even in the most gruesome situation but I failed to understand why and what exactly was he doing and pleaded that nothing untoward should happen to us as my Guru’s name would get tarnished. His honour was my honour after all. And to be precise I was recalling the incident of one chela, disciple as mentioned in Autobiography of a Yogi who was thrown from a cliff top from the mountains of the Himalayas as he could not be accepted as a disciple of Babaji in the current life because of karmic pressure. So he threw himself only to be brought back by the other disciples and a new life was injected in him instantly by Babaji by inducting new life force. Can any of you recall that incident from that book and even tell me in which chapter does this narration come? *

The five kilometres area around Badrinath is very highly spiritually charged. Badrinath is the place where everyone has to come to attain the highest Samadhi-Brahma Samadhi. Boganathar, Agastya Maharishi, Adi Shankaracharya and some more had to come here to attain the highest state of Spiritual knowledge and bliss. It is the world’s most dynamic and spiritually vibrated holy place.

Today when everything has got over and calm has returned, I believe that if I hadn’t chosen to carry out all the directives of my Guru obediently over the whole year like a lamb, I would not have undergone a sea change metamorphosis internally as well externally in my social and family life. The major changes or the metamorphosis that I am speaking about are those I have been craving for a very long time, they did not come about since the past ten years or so. Such is the seizing power of our intricate karmas! But nevertheless, Babaji helped me all along these years with extreme patience and adroitness. I also wonder at this stage at the latest revelation of incredible amount of patience that I have cultivated over the years and the insatiable drive I possess to be excelling myself.

There are none amongst us who are not battling some of these problems- they may be one’s personal, professional, familial or some social or even concerning spiritual success for that matter. Then in our times there are also environmental issues we need to attend to. And interestingly, we cannot solve several of our matters fully by ourselves because of lack of divine insight. This is life. Short-sightedness in us comes from absence of divine wisdom. Divine wisdom is achieved when we slacken off and then untie our grip and the cover of delusive Maya, the deluding Force in nature from our minds. The power and extent of this deluding Maya is so intense and grave that even if we recognize it and begin to work on it for its removal with the help of a highly Self realized Guru, even then the whole process might take many lives! But if our karmas are of the highest order, pious and self-giving and both the disciple and the Guru are both equally keen and ready to face anything without being hesitant, the process of removal of entire cover of dark ignorance in one’s mind begins. It initiates only after we give our petition and a consent is given by God.

It requires a lot of force inside and outside in the teacher and the disciple even to initiate and then to proceed this whole process of complete removal and disintegration of Maya or lack of knowledge or avidya. Just a few would wish to initiate and take this step because first the desire or Ichcha Shakti, which is the power of one’s will in the seeker, has to be very concentrated and genuine. It should not wither or wilt in the long operation as it is time consuming. Once God accepts the petition of the seeker, all the nature’s forces abide faithfully when the schooling and learning is on. Whatever it takes to clear the muck outside one’s surrounding or settings in our lives; come what may, it will be cleared even though the whole procedure may be very tiring and toll-taking. The real procedure starts when the Guru will order the disciple to take some drastic or arduous actions happily and unquestioningly. The disciple should have enough courage and foresight to understand that there is nothing unworthy that the Guru will ask him/her to do and eventually when the series of actions or long drawn instructions are over, the force of the tight grip of complicated karmas of the past would finally be released. These are the tremendously deeply buried seeds of unexpressed karmas of our very first or second human incarnation ever!! If ever we are able to touch upon this level of recovery, then the arrival of the divine rays of blazing knowledge or Prabhutava Gyan from the Universal God dawns in us!!! The withdrawal of the last film of Maya or ignorance from the innermost recess of one’s mind initiates the beginning of Prabhutva Gyan.

What happens when we get such blazing knowledge?

We do not forget God at all and the awareness of its presence, the unity and the adherence is of the highest order while in Teevra intense knowledge, the memory is dim and the fogginess returns if the pressures of arrival of past strong karmas are overwhelming in dire circumstances. In Prachand gyan, the very intense knowledge state, the seeker is more stable yet the consciousness and mindfulness may stagger or the sadhak may be bogged down by the ensuing situations. It is God who decides on the basis of our performing actions and deeds whether we are eligible and can take a step forward or not. The tests and the consent become harder to accomplish as we move up after intense knowledge or Prachand Gyan. Therefore do pious deeds, keep your heart unselfish and have endless faith in your Holy Guru!!!

In the highest state or Prabhutva Gyan come what may, the sadhak has never altering and never failing faith, reverence and unconditional love for both-his mentor, guide and Guru all rolled into one and the ever loving and benevolent God. He/she at last tastes directly the deep Godly love, which is unconditional and unfailing towards him/her and therefore all the tiredness, disappointment and uncertainty which was lingering casts away! A new journey begins; a journey with new life and new Light!!

To be continued…..

(This post needs more revision and reading from my end till it reaches the desired state.

Kindly read it many times as it is grave and elusive in nature. And ask anything that you need to know more on this. Surely some questions will rattle you.

Thanks

Sarika)

*Autobiography of a Yogi, chapter 33


New Life, New Light!

October 10, 2012

All the revered readers and devotees of Shri Mahavatar Babaji,  my namastey to all of you. Sorry to have been away from blog-writing for a long time but I guess, it was essential. As directed by God and all my Gurus, I was totally engrossed in pursuing my next hard lessons of the ensuing class and level. In the previous many days, I wanted to grow more and experience my inner character and strength which has endowments of the Cosmic Spirit. I have realized that we only experience something enormous if we actually take some course of actions and do the right karmas and undergo all the hardships that come along with it before we get the full experience of a new order and class. If we are ready and very keen to step on the next elevation, then the true Guru will make sure you undergo all the hardships and adversities; even dangers in some rare case if you have the irresistible urge to march on in spite of not getting immediate desired results. This is because the extremely vast and unrelenting reserve of faith and unending trust of yours in a personage like His Holiness Shri Mahavatar Babaji will not allow you to opt out of it!!

I now feel totally blessed and completely privileged to have undergone the most unexpected, unpredicted and severe types of tests and experiences which took place at home and even in Badrinath in the month of September with my daughter. But in the end  when I looked back, I realized that Shri Mahavatar Babaji had planned everything out of tune and harmony for me so that I could not only help myself and my daughter to steer clear  unseen, deep rooted offensive seeds of karmas, but at the same time rise very high on unprecedented scale of bravery, presence of mind, fortitude and last but not the least- faith in my Gurus and God as well. I had never once thought in my life that someday in my spiritual yatra, Babaji would stage manage with so much finesse and artistry such unanticipated, stiff as well as harsh events for me just to give an opportunity to soar high!! And after so much turmoil, physical and mental weariness, he showers uncountable number of sacred blessings once everything calms down!!! Only He knows what He is doing and how He will extricate us from the huge complexities of our past complex and unending amassed karmas!! I have woken up to the knowledge that it lies in the hands of only Shri Mahavatar Babaji such dexterity, unending patience and boundless love and compassion for us that it becomes possible to free our Spirit from the bondage and slavery of past good and bad karmas totally and then re-create with so much light a new life full of peace, uninterrupted ananda and get  remarkable solutions and answers to all the nagging grave problems of humans thereby releasing our Spirit with the concealed heaviness of our many past lives. It is only after this that we can actually soar freely and fly easily in the kingdom of God’s heaven and sip the sweet nectar of divinity!

My many, many pranams and thanksgiving to Shri Mahavatar Babaji for allowing me to come much closer to him and letting me peep a little in his personal world after I went through a stormy series of experiences lately. I guess this is one of the prasads-sweet, I got after my tough examinations! I bow eternally at his sacred feet for trusting in me and taking my case in his hand and imperilling so much for my sake on my behalf. No words are sufficient enough to convey my gratitude to the Guru for enriching my life with so much purity and divinity, just the heart knows!

The new segment E that we have just begun has a title- New Life, New Light and it will have far fewer visuals and pictures than before as the focus will be on stirring our thoughts, learning and then our new conclusions. I get a feeling that this segment is going to be a new discovery, a new light in us and a new way of living our present lives. It is only the sacred knowledge given by none other than His Holiness Shri Mahavatar Babaji which we shall now get that we will be able to live a new life with the given new Light…

Before the other posts begin to roll out, kindly go back to Expand your Consciousness-II for future orientation. One suggestion please- kindly do not be apathetic to ask questions, you are expected to do so. It is for your good. And after reading these posts, contemplate and introspect. And to do that you should be meditating regularly, do not skip your daily meditations. Regular practice of meditation will give you the much required mental power to see things in the right light. The subsequent posts will be progressive in nature and each post will have some of my present experience followed by the divine knowledge that I received by my Guru.