I get a new life, a new light in Badrinath-III

Just yesterday, I went to take some rest in the afternoon to get started working on my new post.  By that time, I had not even done any preparatory work for the same. By taking rest, I wished to collect my thoughts and was wondering that although I had enough to say but how do I start this one. I knew what the main theme was but a lot of times I do not know how to begin a new write up. Probably, this was also due to the fact that the splendid festival Diwali, the festival of lights and happiness has surcharged the environment with a buzz of activities. I was not getting the right environment to meditate. With that intention in my mind and to bring to a halt my regular humdrum activities, I decided to devote some time for relaxation and to take a breather and consolidate myself.

During that time, I meditated while I also tried to find answers to some quirky things that happened a few hours ago apart from some lingering personal problems stirring in the past many months. As I relaxed more and more and got respite in a few minutes, slowly my answers began to trickle in. I found some accurate answers from the highest Consciousness and I realized that we need extraordinary patience and persistence if we want to know the cause of the bizarre and inexplicable happenings that occur to us.  Everything has a reason, and that happens because there is a cause somewhere about which we have no clue. Thinking of all this and marvelling at the micro- functioning of the Universal Laws in our Cosmos, I felt very gratified and I became quiet. My eyes were closed approvingly and I was in complete harmony of mind and body. At this point of time, I saw a beautiful Diwali earthen lamp made of dense golden glowing light in the far expanses. It was sparkling and had intense light coming out of it. I was wonder struck at this appeasing sight and took delight in having the rare opportunity to see a blaze of Light in front of me so brilliantly.

A drop of dazzling Light from this lamp came towards me and entered my forehead and it encircled the spot of the Divine eye which we call the third eye. I deliberately allowed it to come in. Just as I recognized that the Divine Light has arrived, the second patch of Light arrived at the same spot. Then the third enforcement and may be another bit of more bright light until the lamp vanished and I started quivering gently. With this accomplishment, I had become totally recharged and ready to begin my work. In a conjuring manner, I found answers to not only the quaint circumstances and the developments that were taking place over the last many days. On the other hand, I also got a reason to begin this post with an appealing anecdote!!

Of late, I have had quite a few experiences of profound revelations since I have returned from Badrinath in September. If I compare my experiences and recent life situations with the Environmentalists or Naturalists, we have something in common. Our experiences teach us to have great patience. The most exquisite experiences and triumphs of an Environmentalist or Naturalists come after a long hiatus, a deep longing and a treacherous wait. To support my statement, take the instance of the Naturalists and Ornithologists who spend days and months even years, in deep forests. They have worked painstakingly, waited endlessly to get a glimpse of the most exquisite birds called the Birds of Paradise in the untouched forests.

So many times success eludes them yet they go again to those forests to watch these exclusive birds. The Birds of Paradise are ethereal, incomparable and most strikingly beautiful because of magnificent colours of their feathers and plumes. Their iridescent plumage and extraordinary, elongated and elaborate feathers combined with their unbelievable enticing dance and astonishing serenading are nature’s most extraordinary wonders on Earth!! These exceptionally beautiful and miraculous birds exist in only one place on Earth and the Environmentalists and the Ornithologists go all the way to those untouched rain forests to do research on them and record documents. And all this requires exceptional painstaking labour and patience. I thought of all this in the bed when I went back to my very fresh experiences in the Himalayas and I remembered my own unimpressive and ineffectual trek to Satopanth. And as I was brooding over all this, I was blessed with an eye opening and prodigious revelation. However, for you to know what those revelations were, we will have to go back and forth in times as I did myself yesterday  afternoon to consolidate my myriad spiritual experiences taking place in the last few months.


Extraordinary experiences demand extraordinary patience.

When I was returning from Badrinath from my failed attempt to meet Shri Mahavatar Babaji personally, I was wilted and lifeless. I was not able to come to terms with the most unexpected turn of events and I could not even understand why all that happened to us. And what was the reason for Babaji to bring me to such high altitudes with so many hardships and then turn down my plea and aspirations? Why did he inspire me so much only to be denied? Why didn’t he meet me? What is going on? All my efforts have borne no fruit and now what in the world will inspire me? I became numb and was too dazed to figure out what was happening to me with the connivance of God and Babaji. In such a state of being insentient and lifeless, I needed mental rest. With all hopes shattered and no energy and life left in me, I wanted to rest in the car as we were driving towards Rishikesh. The time I closed my eyes, I became very still and tranquil and got some rest. Some twenty five kilometres before Karna Prayag, I witnessed that I am no more so anxious and tired. I felt like just shutting my eyes as nothing outside looked any worthwhile; I needed to come closer to my own self. I knew that Babaji had left Badrinath along with me on 22nd Sept and must be in the same vicinity as me somewhere.

(New readers will have to revert to older posts New Light, New Life, I get a new life, a new light in Badrinath-I & II

In spite of my composure, the further I travelled down, the sadder I became. There was a reason for it. Mentally I was still so profoundly connected with him because he gave me information of each detail and description of his movement, hour by hour even minute by minute by telepathy.  There was not a single moment when we were apart. I was actually making two trips on two levels. One mentally with him upwards towards his winter abode in middle regions of Himalayas where he had just shifted, and one in physical terms while I was descending from Himalayas towards Rishikesh. I was literally torn apart in every sense. So close yet so far…..I was also aghast at the extent of personal information that he was giving me incessantly as if to compensate for the rough treatment that I was meted out by him because of the bad trek and unforgiving weather and so on.

I don’t know when it happened but I was very settled and composed as some time passed and I touched my inner depths quite smoothly. I was soon lost to the outer physical world and I was at peace with myself. An exclusive peace made me centred and balanced and I did not want to come out of it at all now. I lost consciousness of time and my own body and got drowned in my inner peace. I stayed in that situation to what seemed timeless and eternity.

At this stage, I saw a very thick shaft of Light penetrating from a big opening up in the higher spaces. The Light had arrived from the divine Heavens onto the Earth and was cutting across the many layers of the skies and had reached the ground. Before it touched the ground, it was sprinkling from that opening in all areas. Some rays were falling on the left side, some in the centre and some on the right side of the opening. The space was filled with innumerable shimmery, beautiful rays of golden Light. The thick beam of Light rays were falling gently from above and they resembled the falling of very light snowflakes sprinkling all the way down on the ground. Soon my whole canvas was filled entirely with ample rays of Divine Light producing unprecedented deep silence and depth less stillness. I stayed with it until in the profusion of Light, I saw a solid trunk of a Banyan tree. In the space between my vision and that tree trunk was the presence of that copious golden Light!

The Banyan tree was situated inside a spacious cave cut out of a mountain piece. Its strong and thick roots were holding to the ground tightly and were distributed in all ways. In front of the tree trunk amidst the drizzle of golden rays was a seat which had a grey woolen blanket. On the blanket someone was seated.  My eyes were keen to know who it was. It was a yogi. I watched this yogi in a mesmerizing spell and awe. I was captivated by his presence and aura. First I saw just the right half of the yogi in meditation whose hair was unusually long and was dropping down freely much below his seat like the hanging roots of the Banyan tree behind him.

Slowly, I saw the full face; it had a radiant golden glow. The body was also brilliant as rays of golden yellow light were coming out of him. He wore an ochre cloth over his body and was meditating with a still body. Now I could see the whole figure and recognized the identity without any doubt or skepticism. I saw myself bending towards him in gratitude and reverence and I had no sense of time or space while I sat there wonder struck. The vision was now complete. I was in a big cave in a mountain where there was an old Banyan tree. There was a lot of divinity present there and the rays of Golden Light from God, of peace and knowledge were coming towards the cave. I sat there on the ground at his feet with poise, peace and patience. We both sat there in the cave under a big Banyan tree amidst the atmosphere of golden light. Much time lapsed and I was having a glorious time during those wonderful moments.

The yogi began to give me a sermon-

“God is an eternal force. That force is in you, recognize it. This Universe is his creation made of illusion, Maya. Separate the Maya from Ishwar God. God is infinite and so is his creation- endless. The supreme knowledge with which one knows God is also eternal shashwat. Attain that. Separate the perishable body from the eternal Brahma. You are Brahma. You are Eternal. Thou art That.”

I heard each word with rapt attention and after listening to these sacred words of eternal knowledge, I underwent another supernatural phenomenon. I saw myself enclosed in a case and I was immediately passing through this case which was like a long, deep passageway. I travelled in it very swiftly and inside the passage also, there was abundant light. I was crossing over this passage amidst a lot of light with ecstasy and after travelling quite a long passage I came out of it as it ended. The moment I came out of this passage, I felt the expansion. There was limitless dazzling Light outside it which was much, much greater and expansive than inside. In an enrapturing bliss, I began to jump up with my right hand raised in the air and my index finger pointing towards the sky and I said, “I am That, I am That, I am That……”

Dear readers, this is a very exact and rare description of Shakti paat or transference of divine energies that took place in my personal spiritual journey when Shri Shri Mahavatar Babaji transferred the realization of that Eternal Force called Brahma from his cave in the Himalayas during the time I was sitting in a car and returning home without meeting him in Badrinath on 22nd of September before Karna Prayag. He gave me a direct experience of that Cosmic Consciousness as grace and compassion. Such experiences require very perfect conditions of mind, body and outer environment.

He was aware that I could not have been able to withstand the acute cold conditions of the place where he spends his summers- the cave close to the Satopanth Lake at 14,000 ft above sea level. It was not the right place for me for this revelation. So he never met me personally at that spot though he was calling me since years. Today I understand that nevertheless, the bungled and unsuccessful trek up to Chamtoli at the height of 12,000 ft was necessary for me and my daughter to be able to undergo some special and specific experiences in order to be ready for this exquisite and very extraordinary spiritual experience which I have just recounted. He was aware since the very beginning that I would not be able to make it to the top yet he made me undergo many extreme near death, physical, mental hardships in various geographical conditions since years as preparations in order to make me complete for the realization and experience of Brahma.

Please refer older post-(A Voyage to Eternity- a pilgrimage to Shri Mahavatar Babaji’s Ashram at Badrinath those readers who do not know the past and backgound of events on which this post is based on)

I am just realizing that Shri Mahavatar Babaji is such a splendid Spiritual Master. I am still discovering him day by day. His expertise lies in working on us endlessly with tremendous patience and waiting infinitely for the results to manifest. He works on us without any rest and like an excellent teacher, he gives us some tasks to accomplish as our spiritual training or sadhana. Many uncountable small tasks when accomplished, combine in the end to achieve something very extraordinary. And for that very extraordinary achievement and triumph is taught the inculcating of extraordinary patience to us.

My very beloved Mahavatar Babaji, I thank you with all my heart, soul and mind for being so patient with me as you have chiseled and sculpted an idol out of a waste piece of rock in the wilderness!!!The craftsmanship, labour, art, sweat, patience and love is yours, I am only the receiver, the beneficiary. You are like the blazing Sun in the sky that lights up this Universe and hides itself at night. The Sun has been lighting up this Earth since I don’t know when and it never ever asks for acknowledgement and  any  credit. Shri  Babaji, you are the Light of this world! You have brought so much Light into my life and through me to other people’s lives. May we be your obedient children and always follow the radiant path of knowledge, humility, consecration, purity and virtuousness as shown by you. This is still too small in return for all the countless blessings that you have been pouring on us endlessly…..

Revised on 11.06.19

13 Responses to I get a new life, a new light in Badrinath-III

  1. Atul says:


    Readers of this blog are truly fortunate and Blessed.
    Divine Babaji,Divine Mother,Divine Deva and God Himself speaks to us through this blog, taking us from abysmal darkness to Light.

    God Bless You.

  2. Mandira says:

    That trip to Badrinath will remain etched in my mind forever, for many, many reasons

  3. Shahid says:

    Very blessed to read about your cosmic consciousness experience here. You deserve every bit of it and much more Sarikaji 🙂

    Thank you Babaji and all the Higher masters/ Light beings for guiding and blessing everyone who reads any or each of Sarikaji’s blog posts.

  4. midhunpk210m says:

    such a great experience..

    everything at your feet babaji…

    ohm namo bhagavade vasudevaya.

    thanks to sarika ji, for sharing this experience with us.

  5. pandey2 says:

    Thank you Ma…Every line here is sacred and needs to be read again and again.

    “I am That, I am That, I am That……”

    -The Sun has been lighting up this Earth since I don’t know when and it never ever asks for acknowledgement and any credit.

    -Shri Babaji, you are the Light of this world! You have brought so much Light into my life and through me to other people’s lives. May we be your obedient children and always follow the radiant path of knowledge, humility, consecration, purity and virtuousness as shown by you.

    with love and gratitude.

  6. midhunpk210 says:

    ohm namo narayana.

    Dear ma,

    thanks for this post.

    such a beautiful experience, love to read it ma,

    expecially the para you have written about babajis meditation under the banyan tree, the divine light,the golden light,

    pranam to sri babaji and ma.

    with love and respect,

    Midhun Pk

  7. Resham says:

    Thank you My Sweet Maa and most revered Babaji for giving us this special privilege to read this blog. Many a times, i wonder how blessed I am to be receiving this precious knowledge. i have no words to express my gratitude. Today, I pray to the Divine and my loving Gurus that never in my life and the following births, I forget this knowledge and apply them in practical life. I liked the entire post so much. These lines I liked a lot “Everything has a reason, and that happens because there is a cause somewhere about which we have no clue. Many uncountable small tasks when accomplished, combine in the end to achieve something very extraordinary. And for that very extraordinary achievement and triumph is taught the inculcating of extraordinary patience to us.”

    • spiritinlife says:

      Dear Resham remember these lines- Everything has a reason …….patience in us. Endure, have patience. Think and remember God in circumstances which you cannot control. With love yours Ma.

      • Resham says:

        Dearest Maa, the important point highlighted above is very precious indeed. You know Maa, while reading a very holy book last night, I suddenly realised that there is a blessing hidden in bitter experiences. I picked up a good lesson from what I experienced a few days back and I am back to track with lots of gratitude for God. 🙂 And I also learnt that surrender to Guru is very important for a serious seeker. Not that i did not not believe in this, but yesterday, this lesson got all the more ingrained in my mind. 🙂

        With deep regards for you Maa.

      • Resham says:

        And one more thing I would like to add here, Maa. This thought suddenly came to my mind after contemplating a bit just before writing this reply. The thought is: Wisdom brings profound joy and is an antidote to pain. I bow down humbly with utmost reverence to all My Inner Guru, all Divine Beings and to you Maa for sharing your peals of wisdom with us.

  8. pandey2 says:

    Extraordinary experiences demand extraordinary patience. Guru is doing the all the work in background and asking us to just keep having faith and patience.

    Guru’s grace is infinite. At-times we don’t understand why Guru is doing something like this to us..but then Guru is nothing but god manifested in physical form and since god is infinite so is Guru. How some one like us can understand the kripa of Guru. it is difficult to describe Guru’s Kripa on us without which it is not possible to sail through this Sansar Bhav Sagar.

    बलिहारी गुर आपणैं, द्यौंहाडी कै बार।
    जिनि मानिष तैं देवता, करत न लागी बार।।

    Words would not do justice however times we thank our Guru. Thank you Guru Babaji, divine masters and Guru Ma for your kindness. May we all children of Babaji grow spiritually and Sail through this Maya for forever in this life time.


  9. Chaya says:

    So true, Paripurnaji… Words would not do any justice, sincerely following their guidance and being humble and grateful for all their kripa is the least we can do.. Pranams and gratitude to our dear Babaji, Ma and all Divine Masters..

  10. Kunal says:

    Dear Ma,

    Most of us are tired of our incessant negative thoughts, we seek a guru in the beginning to learn to deal with this continuous radio not in our control. Most people don’t know what they want, It takes lifetimes to get the question of what is it that I am looking for? Then that question is simplified to ‘Who am I?’. lifetimes get devoted to the search for an answer of this question. The answer is the experience of the I, the rishis are still perfecting this ‘I’, improving the answer.

    All techniques are to not use the mind. Meditation is a state of no thought, by doing concentration for long on mantra or watching the breath, we often get thoughtless for short periods, meditation happens to us and can’t be done. But the bundle of thoughts of lifetimes in our subconscious and unconscious will not permit complete silence. I guess self enquiry comes next.

    The soul is never checked or questioned, Who am I? we only think of objects and subjective experience, What about the one which is experiencing? What is that? The objects and experiences keep changing, we must see what is permanent. We know where to look, at the heart the mana,but how do we go through its layers?

    Like Ramana maharishi said, the mind is a bundle of thoughts. What we remember best is our identity, that is the source of all thought, ‘I’. The organiser of all thoughts. We have to reverse our thinking to the beginning. Who am I? Who is the one thinking these thoughts? By being in this search and having a fire of desire for knowing what’s behind, answers will start coming from within that we have collected in our unconscious mind, saying neti neti, not I not I, till nothing remains to be removed then the self shall be revealed.

    Shedding the collected thoughts leads to feeling lighter and more peace. Most people want to make ‘I’ great and not shed the ‘I’. God is not the object and seen, but the seer. We have to shed our identities completely for a glimpse. The shedding leads to a expanded experience and purer expression without emotional or mental blocks.This gives more peace.

    What makes the division between the self? When people get frustrated with life they say I am not this and you are that, I am this and you are not that. Why divide so much?

    All this understanding is great and easy, but doing this is very hard, we hope somehow we can shed this ‘I’ like you.

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