The frantic pace of my life these days and the struggle to achieve the desired goals of bringing a positive change in my external environment has given rise to many questions. But these questions were born and soon drowned in the hyper activities occurring these days. Even nights are mostly spent in inching towards my aims now.
The questions which my mind is raising these days are:-
I have tremendous peace within me. God’s Light, or even a fraction and a speck of that Light gives me profound tranquility. But the present task that God has assigned to me is of the bipolar world. A world where there is only impurity, profanation, devilry, offence and wrong-doing. To bring about a positive change, a constructive alteration in the current scenario and to bring order and harmony in this sinful world seems so difficult and remote!
Why has God chosen me? Why do I have to go through so much mental agony and weariness and not others? Why are there such few good and so many unscrupulous and mendacious people? If I have earned my peace of mind, when will I reap the harvest?
Simply put, why doesn’t God give me isolation so that I can enjoy the serenity and uninterrupted calmness which I have earned with my endeavours? Why so much struggle in bringing about peace in the world? Why so much struggle in my life? Why do I have to involve myself with activities which are contrary to my sensibilities and taste? Why?…….
Oh! It has got so late for me tonight. The whole world seems to be sleeping except for me. It is already 2.00 a.m. and I am writing in my notebook. This is because I have just been relieved and have found my answers in God’s own peculiar and unique ways!
Before falling asleep I remembered God as I do everyday, who resides in me as pure Light. I first acknowledged his presence and existing power and expressed my gratefulness for all the help and support I am receiving from unexpected quarters these days for the task that he has assigned to me. And I wish to attune myself perfectly well so that I am able to receive maximum help sent by God through various mediums. So I blessed my relatives from the core of my heart whom I just visited a few hours ago because their genuine good vibrations reached and entered my heart. They meant good for me today. I also prayed for some more people whom I thought need God’s transmission of unseen protection and spiritual nourishment and are with me in our struggle to bring about necessary social changes.
With these thoughts I lulled myself to sleep. As I put my head on the pillow, in my left ear, very explicitly, I heard the sound of the gong of the astral bells ringing as though they were ringing in a far off land. We all have heard the bells ringing with well paced rhythm in the temples and I am sure we all like it very much. The sound of temple bells have a deep impact on our heart and the mind too. Even these bells that were ringing in my extra sensory ear were very enchanting as my attention became completely fine tuned. They were originating from the much higher energy centres in the energized spinal cord. The continuous reverberating sound of the bells produced profound pleasing calmness over me and I soon realized that I have got untied from the unremitting sense of body consciousness. I became very light and was uplifted to higher domains of deeper peace. I felt so free….very free….completely free….though for a few seconds but I was in an outer space of freedom and weightlessness…..
As my concentration on the sounds of the bells became sharper, I began to hear the sound of Om originating along side the sounds of the bells. I could hear the bells ringing as well as the sound of Om together at this stage. The sacred sound of Om gave me tremendous peace and I considered myself truly blessed at this Divine hour.
After a while, the ringing of the bells stopped and only the sound of Om was reverberating in my ear clearly. Om…… Om…. Om……Om……Om…….Om……
These vibrating sound waves then began to spread from my head to my arms, torso, legs, toes and then to each body part and every cell of my being. Each cell of my body began to vibrate with the sound and current of flowing Om which permeated me with complete silence and thoughtlessness. In Hindu scriptures, this is termed as ‘Naad Ghosh.‘ I must have stayed in this state for sometime when…
I received my answer from God in spoken words “Dukh mei sukh chupa hai, andhere mei prakash, asatya mei satya. Jeevan ek sangram hai. Jeevan sangarsh hai. Prakash ko pane ke liye, andhkar se guzarna padta hai. Satya ko janane ke liye asatya ko jaanana padega aur sukh pane ke liye dukh sahana padega. Yahi jeevan ka sangharsh hai.”
In sorrow is hidden happiness, in darkness light, truth in falsehood. Life is a conflict. Life is a struggle. To attain Light, one has to go through darkness. To know the truth, one must know falsehood and to achieve happiness, one must go through sorrow. This is the struggle of life.
I have found my answers to the ongoing conflict and turmoil in my mind. I am at ease with myself. I am now at peace with myself !
Peace for me! Peace for you! Peace for all!!