Reminiscing about my last decade’s synopsis of inner spiritual yatra , I saw that when I was adamantly searching, I was essentially in search of peace. I wished to have a firm peace of mind. I had asked God to grant me that in great abundance. After the turmoil and mayhems inside born out of my own fate, I wished to seek something that would give rest to my mind for good as I was very tired, really tired of the whole thing.
Everything looked worthless except, having peace of mind during that crucial life phase. It seemed as essential to my life as fresh air. It became as imperative as water is to each one of us; water our lifeline. It became as pressing as daily night sleep is for our well-being. I can go on with a few more comparisons which would stress on my chronicle that I wanted peace of mind like never before because it seemed to me that whether good or low times, peace was never sought by me earlier and that it had to be accomplished somehow and it was really vital. Besides that, if I did not lead a peaceful and pious life, eventually it did not matter what I possessed or achieved in worldly gains, they were inconsequential. My saatvik tendencies were bursting to the fore with full force as if there was no other aim to be achieved in life other than this one. It was a matter of life and death kind of a situation when I look back to review my life now. By looking over it, I also get a sense of awareness and I can gauge very well how much, how much my Masters have worked on me day and night painstakingly without any halt so that I could once and all achieve the ultimate goal of my life-salvaging my soul and freeing my chains of slavery to the innumerable karmas that I have sowed in countless lives, and then live peacefully….
So, when peace arrived with the arrival of so many visions of His Holiness Swami Nityananda and Swami Shaligram of Ganeshpuri during my sleep, I turned inwards effortlessly. I touched a chord with them instantaneously and with their each arrival, came a gush of peace. It was a new beginning in my life with such mystic encounters that look unbelievable to most people, particularly to the profane. In the middle of black clouds, a gentle revolution was taking place in silence. Every vision of Swami Nityananda and every soothing, assuring word of the Swami of a few words, Dayananda Shaligram were moving me into God’s world that was so promising; it was laden with supernatural peace and sustained calmness.
As more and more calmness infiltrated into life, my mind automatically lost the grip of the thoughts that were associated with several people, things and even events of previous life phases. I got a hold of things as they were in reality, in genuineness as well as with a sense of intense calmness and my views were dispassionate as though those events were someone else’s story and not mine. This was in spite of the fact that I gained a true picture of people’s false, crooked and hypocritical nature and I saw them in correct light with the Grace of the benevolent saints. Grace was cascading over me ceaselessly because I asked for redemption and was ready to do any kind of penance to pay the price of my biggest wealth- my solid peaceful mind.
The biggest virtue that I received from Swami Shaligram was that peace is everything. There was a solution to every problem of mine which he said he would give me but I should hold on to my peace and not let it slip away. If I had peace in my mind and would not be ruffled, then one day I could also see God because peace follows more peace, and when we have abundant peace and do penance correspondingly, God appears to us. I was convinced of this logic because my life was surely changing as I calmed down my mind each day and saw the pronounced results. I began to intuit more, I began to communicate with my Swamis more often than before and I was turning inward more and more and my health began to improve drastically . And I had a reason to re-align my life once again.
When I embarked on my voyage, I was doing everything for peace and wanted to know the Truth from God directly in that state of mind. Who knew at that time as things were so out of tune, that one day I would be sharing my intimate spiritual experiences with people I know and also with those I do not know at all and that they would be useful for all of them in some way or the other. They would in future also open new avenues for them on their path of God realization. My experiences would help them in their growth and progress and my words would be a reflection of God’s own words for others to follow and circumnavigate……life is so pleasantly surprising, really!!!
My learnings at that time-The most important aim of our meditation is to achieve deep tranquillity and peace of mind. Our Spirit will only manifest itself if the inner environment is peace laden. There is no peace without a prior tempest; there is no lasting peace of mind without a long duration of penance or tapasya. Some of you who make an intent quietly in your heart, God will grant that slowly until the time when the clouds of outside storm gathered around you are disintegrated by God and peace would return in its place.
This is the blessing that we should ask God to bestow on us so that God as intense peace shines forth as the Sun amidst the grey clouds that were gathered in the mind…….
On 2nd Feb 2014 evening, as I was getting started to bring all the things that were required to make my meals, all of a sudden I heard a very unique, overwhelming and heavenly sound similar to Om. In an instant, my eyes became enlarged like never before, my diaphragm expanded and extended extraordinarily and I felt a huge spiral current across my spine which made me totally energetic and robust. In short, my face almost resembled the Kuchipudi dancers and I was stretching myself further and further outwardly till my breath stopped fully. I could feel that there was no beating of the heart and I was not uncomfortable in any way because of this. I straightaway stopped my hands working on the counter of the kitchen and stood still without a breath to know what was happening unusual this time.
Just right then, with my eyes which were opened normally but making no movements, I could see the arrival of the appearance of Shri Mahavatar Babaji with a laptop, and reading something in a far off mountainous area with someone young leaning towards the screen of the computer. He was smiling softly, I heard him saying,” Oh so she has published such a wonderful post on the internet. People have liked it and also the simile of the Bird of Paradise. This means that she receives flawlessly what I want her to take from my mind. She is gathering my thoughts in the most precise manner, the way I want her to receive!”
Suddenly at this second, something unprecedented happened. A relay of thoughts originating from the mind of Shri Mahavatar Babaji were transferring and reaching my mind. It was very evident; I could sense and see it, both. Like Sanjay of Mahabharata character I could see the whole scene being enacted in a distant place while standing in my house and with eyes open normally. I could for a while see unmistakably, Shri Mahavatar Babaji sitting with someone in a house made of stones in a hilly area and he was seeing the header of peacock feather on top and then reading the subject matter downwards and finally rolling his eyes from top to bottom on the screen of my blog. He was delighted with what he saw and his face projected ecstasy. I could understand with all this that he wished I must surely know in some manner that he keeps track of my blog and that he too like others, reads it from time to time. In doing this, he is controlling something that belongs to him and I, at the same time, should feel assured with his supervision.
On hearing this information which was clear and audible like normal conversations that we have in daily life between ourselves, I understood far too well that somewhere in a nook and corner of the Himalayas, Shri Mahavatar Babaji must have asked someone to give him a laptop and he was browsing my blog and had reached the new post published on 31.1.14. regarding my visit to Dakshineshwar. He was taking immense pleasure in the positive remark made by God towards his slighter and small disciple like me and the recent progress that I had made. As a blessing and a kind gesture, he messaged me telepathically and not through sms to tell me that I am being watched and protected like a small child by her Divine Father.
Now regarding that unique sound- my mind shifted to my right ear where the sharp sound was lingering which was similar to Om but it was not what I had heard ever before. I was slightly puzzled and very desperately curious to know after all what that was and why it had appeared in the first place. Was this sound an indicator and a tipoff that the mind of Shri Mahavatar Babaji was about to relay something to me or was it an auspicious sign of something else?
After a few seconds of wonderment, I got to experience another moment of stupefaction when I began to hear this sacred information from Him,
“The unique sound that you just heard is a sound which is higher than the wavelength of Om. It will give you profound and very deep peace. The uninterrupted peace will last for three continuous days.”
I thought for a moment that so far Babaji never told me that there was any sound whose wave length was far higher and sharper than Om. He has never discussed this or informed me earlier. I wondered if anybody else knew apart from very advanced yogis. I was later told that only one or two very highly evolved classical singers are familiar with this sound. Knowing this much, my mind came to rest finally.
I stayed in that state for three days, totally meditative and in unbreakable peace. I have been hearing this special sound intermittently and at irregular junctures which puts me in a very peaceful state of mind all of a sudden, a state which is indescribable. I dive deep inside the waters of a calm river whose water is so cool and restful that it is very hard to break that silence and open my eyes again to see visuals that my eyes hold of outside world.
Is it a reward that Babaji gave me as my Guru for his work that I do?
If so, then it was a divine blessing. I write all my posts only when there is an advent of inspiration from the world of the saints who again act as and when they are in inspiration from God. Their mutual co-ordination and co-operation through intuition becomes one divine world and all have the same sankalpa or common thought for the welfare of everybody. With continuous gratitude and prostration in my heart throughout the day, I thank them. That is all I can do for the kindness that has been sprinkled on me for abundant peace and the unique divine sound which is so rare to get to hear by any of us.
No matter how much a devotee pays respect or shows gratitude for such huge benign acts of the sacred Masters, it will always be less and insufficient because we cannot reciprocate accordingly for the kind gestures that they do for us by taking us to God’s world where such good omens and auspiciousness awaits us…….
For those indebted followers– Dear friends, some of the blog followers were benefitting liberally until some time back and were in touch with Shri Mahavatar Babaji and his regular teachings on this blog. For some unexplained reasons, they have discontinued contact with me or the blog without any communication or a reasonable dialogue.
Respectful silence would have been maintained by me otherwise. But as our Teacher and mentor, guide and spiritual Guru Shri Mahavatar Babaji is running his open school through the blog, he is cautioning us that such people are indebted towards him, other saints as well as me. It will not be proper for them to discontinue their unfinished education and training and it would bring about unfavourable results in future. Whether it is now or in another hundreds of centuries, they would have to re-start their spiritual journey again with the same teachers as God will not permit anyone to break the rules laid down for everybody. The law of gratefulness should not be breached.
If the mandatory time allowance and Grace period is properly utilized, they would help and salvage themselves. The relationship of a true yogi and his Guru is everlasting. The bonding between the two is unconditional and it requires the disciple to rubbish the adamant ego and false doubts immediately and re-start their journey from where they left. The Master is always ready to embrace them and put them back on the right track provided they know that if they do not forgive themselves, they will not be able to make up for the loss that they have incurred upon themselves. The Guru is unreasonably generous. He has forgiven so many before and knows that the Maya is so consuming and deluding that it is not the fault of the chela or disciple. Therefore, trust in God and re-start from where you had left and begin your journey once more so that the loss is not incurable and incalculable.
And there are many people who have been reading the blog for many months or a few years and have not got in touch with me yet. I don’t even know them. For your own betterment and good, kindly do not wait more and get rid of your hesitation and become active by starting a dialogue or saying something in the comment box and through an email at email@example.com. A relationship of a teacher and a student should be built so that the teacher knows who all are benefitting from the lessons posted regularly on the blog and what guidance needs to be imparted to them. On the part of the student, they too should acknowledge their thankfulness and respect to their teachers for all the efforts that are going in this open school for advanced yogis. The students should avoid being seriously indebted to the teachers and avert future complications in their karmic cycles. The role of the spiritual Guru is to give directions very politely and with subtleness; it is the duty of the intelligent disciple to review his accomplishments periodically and grasp what is being told to him and then act accordingly. The Guru is delighted when He sees some of his disciples learn in a quiet and subtle way because Life, Nature as well as God are all teaching us in a quiet and subtle way, very gently…….
Om Shanti, Shanti, Shanti Om……